Friday

Wow, this is the first "real" Friday that I have had in over 3 months. I actually feel like the weekend is almost here and I have the freedom to go to bed as late as I want tonight. Maybe I will play craft, or maybe just watch lots of TV, knowing that I can sleep in tomorrow. How luxurious...

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It's hard to believe that May is herre. I've always associated May with "school almost over" feelings. And with those thoughts come the questions of "what are your plans for the summer". I think about my roommates from last year, and all three of them are probably looking ahead to the summer right now. Ray and Dan in grad school, Roi finishing his first year of teaching junior high kids, and they all probably either have plans or are making plans.

But now for me, May is just like any other month of the year. As a matter of fact, summer is just like any other season, except it's hotter outside, there's construction on the roads, and baseball games are on every night. The phrase "summer vacation" holds no meaning to me. For the first time, there's no questions about whether I'll be interning, vacationing somewhere, or taking summer classes, because work goes on like usual.

So as a result, I don't know what to gauge my progress on anymore. It used to be that after finals in May, assuming you passed, it means you successfully completed another year and were ready to move on to the next. This would be the time when you could reasonably and logically declare that you had indeed stepped forward in the past year.

Right now, there's no clear indicator or "measuring stick" for me to be able to say "This is where I was before, and this is where I am now. Look how far I've come." We progress throughout the course of different projects, and we have yearly performance evaluations, but it's not really the same. Maybe the only true test of "passing" at the job is "not being fired". So I guess I'm doing well so far, in my first 6-7 months of working. haha...